我想哭。。

我真的很想哭。。
很难的。。 有精神做我的功。。
为什么？为什么要那么痛。。
我真的很痛。。
今天刚起来。。 我的右手不能动。。 真的很疼。。
我要哭了。。 不能忍受那个痛。。
在疼都好。。 我用了左手。。 写下我的难过，
我不能放弃。。
再还有那么多希望在前。。
不能把这个不能放在这些希望的前面。
救我。。 T__T

我不要痛！！！

Future Leader Programme By AYTR

Great Camp indeed. 

it is where the activity reflect what is happening to me now a day.

Yes, we had been taught that people are realistic. How realistic? 

what you can't see when you are easy isn't realistic. 

When you facing difficulty, that is where the people become realistic. 

People are forced to make decision irrational when we doesn't have anymore choice. 

Disappointed over irrational, sad when we are left out. People doesn't think what is other people thinking. 

some does it happily, some doesn't. Realistic

Initiative..

i found out most of our campus student isn't initiative enough. 

For example, who does ever volunteer them self to be a group leader for assignment. 

yes there is, but what about others? 

Do people argue for their right or just listen while doing nothing? 

Realistic again.. People are throwing the ball with each other in the society now a day. 

What is a leader? What can a leader his or her own self can do?

First day of the camp, we are getting criticized over our bad presentation? 

It doesn't even look like a presentation as we heard from them. 

What? it is the style of MMU student give that amount of time. 

IMAGINE!! 

this is the quality of MMU student now a day. 

Many people doesn't realise, but 

yes it is us... we are being low quality instead of what we though we are so great. 

Do people care? no people criticized! 

Why should people care? no... just complain over something that happen bad to them. 

Observation from them. 

Realistic again. 

Why wear the mask while you aren't feeling happy at all? 

well... we do wear mask while we think it is necessary. 

But DO stop wearing your mask and be yourself, 

you doesn't want to improve your mask, 

instead of that... improve your SELF. 

We did have own initiative in own self, if you want something, be initiative, go for it. 

Be the first, not the second. 

What's wrong voice out what you feel?

what kept inside? people doesn't know you if you don't voice out. 

A good people or good leader doesn't mean need to have a good speaking or talking skill. 

Instead, people who gain respect. 

A leader don't complain. 

There is something which is i think is so right from Mr Tan,

being smart in school in studies, doesn't mean you are good in the society.

Do enjoy what you have in University life, Do participate more, do know more about the society. 

Or else what else you have to think back when you are in University life? 

eating in SK? staying at house playing Dota? surfing Facebook? 

it is your choice. 

Human aren't perfect, please understand there is always some hole in a human life. 

Believe there is always a way when you want to solve a problem.

To Be Continue... 

night.. 

Can't get inside

i really don't understand what you all thinking.
i really can't understand what you all are doing.
This suck!!! suck to the max!!!
how come i can't even feel you all as part of the family...
all i need is just you all are part of the family.
just simply feel... why i can't get it... why am i trying so hard for it.
everyday i can't help to bring out my bad side,
scolding shit, and all the bad words, !@#(*^!@#@& just because
of STUPID this word.
i admit i m quite disorganize now.
i m unhappy, not until you appear.
not until A2 - 2 -6 is there.
working environment sucks,
one phrase,
don't make me become selfish..
don't make me don't even care about what you need for.
i doesn't really know am i wrong or correct
i hate this phrase... 心理问题
doing event is a happy thing, but why for the first time, i felt i m so ... not happy.
bind by past, bind by unknown, bind by uncertainties, bind by everything that i think is bad for the event it self.
it is like... SPOON FEED!!
Aren't you guys realised, what is the time now?
aren't you guys are good now? why you guys make me felt.. oh nooo...
i want my event feeling back. Malacca RD i miss you guys.

秘密

Secret..
心中的秘密。。
连心都不肯告诉我他的秘密。。。
我怎么要把我自己变的快乐。
我忍了大风，把一道墙放在他们前面。
无法。。。 简直无法。。
无法让你们知道。。 无法让你们快了。。 无法让你们满足。
渐渐的。。。 我需要的爱。。 已近冷诺了。
真的需要你们两个。。。 太远了。。 太远了。。
我不能变成完美的人。。。
我不能。。。 我只是尽我能力。。
我不是超人。。
有时，很多加减乘除。。 在我脑海里。。
游来游去。
我希望。。 这个泪。不会白掉。。

Make it a day

i m Ready..
i m Okay..
i m Good..

Everything that left for me this semester, it is going to be a great months.
i just wanted to do what i want and go forward..
do expect some the annoyance side of mine.
do expect the ugly side of mine.
what i want is the best for what i want to see.
Camp, something i expect nothing else but a good camp.
i can't expect much, i just want to do the best, just for you all.

One week past very fast.
it is indeed a good week although there is up and down.
i admit, it is a good week, better than other previous mid semester break that i ever had
from the day i enrolled to MMU.

Dreams, hope, and goals.
Some people i had to say sorry because what i m.
Some people i wish to understand you more, but the border is there.
Some group of people i wish belong to.
Some people who i hope to go together with, happy with, share the ups and downs with.

My life is one day by one day, still going on,
challenge by challenge.

Today
a message by my dad,
make my life a worth life.
a challenge life.

a message by my mum,
a comfort message,
i can't express to her,
but i would like her to feel it.

Alex Lim
Rei... 15 March 2010
5.10pm
signing off.. zzz

Helpless

it wasn't a me... this week...
i felt so not myself... even my thinking and so on.
who am i suddenly? why m i doing so much of unnecessary thing. .

it was an awful day for me...
i wasn't really into myself today... felt so helpless, felt so useless.
i can't complain myself like that cause it isn't me...
whatever i did is really out of my league.
i need to fix back myself...

Alex Lim, where are you?
are you still at Cyber? why you never come back to Melaka?
i need your thought.

Unexpected, unlucky... unhappy day...

如何解释。。

早起的鸟儿有虫吃。。 

一大清早。。Y3 打电话给我。。8.15am 

我醒来了。。 zzz， 真的很想在睡。。

可是好吃的点心，我不能错过。。 哈哈

yumm yumm

跟了Detective Ang, Ah beng, y3, zohan!，Draggy 和 Kai Ling 

去吃。。 听了不少东西。。 @@... huhuhu...

过后呢。。。 去SK打包东西给午餐吃。。

哇。。 kns... 尽然Debit 卡不能在油站用的。。

害我进这么多钱。。 == 

然后叻。。 就会学校搬东西回NTU 咯。。

本来想跟你吃个午饭的。。 哪里知道。。 没时间。。。 haiz..

没关系`。。 

过后回家整理行李。。

拖来拖去。。。 结果。。。 不好的事情就发生了。。

cham lo!! 

就是因为Facebook。。 

害我。。。

开车。。 很开心的要回家liao...

可是。。。 在Senawang的停站。。

突然有一个马来人忽然。。。 在我开我车门，

突然闯进我的车。。 求我快点追那个巴士。。

不知道为什么我这么笨。。。 还是太好了。。。 去帮那个人。。 

幸亏他不是什么坏人，要威胁我。。 ..

虽然很累。。。 7 个小时车程。。。 

还在路途中，被家人骂。。 真jialat... 

haiz.. 不知道要怎么形容今天。。。 

希望明天会跟好。。 哈哈。。

It has been awhile

Hmm,
It has been awhile i never blog, haha, many people start to say, aww another dead blog again.
Finally my Major event finish... the 13th CNYE.. good job, having alot memories with you guys.
right now i m studying for my marketing exams tmr, and yet im day dreaming here....

alot is happening since then... so much...
i doesn't know how to begin with to write in here..
seems like i need to wait until everything of me is settle till then, then i will post more here
haha..

adious..

Just wanted to give you happiness

数到5答应我

亲人

超级白！！！

忘记

忘记。。
忘记所有一切。。。
忘记所有让我伤心的一切
删除。。
删除不要的东西。。
删除痛苦的回忆。。
这是我已经变成你的陌生人。。
不要在返回。。 这些也不重要了。。
祝你生活快乐。。。
Saiyonara。

我现在有了是快乐。。
新的一年。。
2010。。。
我希望你就是我的唯一了。。
你是我的最特别。。
谢谢你给我的快乐。。
虽然不能跟你见面。。
可是我会等待。。
我等着你。。
April。。。
a long way to go... but i m more than willing to wait.

13th 届 新春。。。
我们大家一起加油。。。

迎新。。。
我会做到我最好。。。

学业。。。
我要4 FLAT！！

leg!!! huat ar!! heng ar!! song ar!!! woot!

huat ar!
finally my leg kena balut!! haha...
after a month of pain... and stuborn.
here is the result!... serve me right! haha...
happy new year...
this leg is my new year eve present... nice leh..
i love it XD

什么都不需要

人。
朋友。。
家人。。。

我的存在。。
就是让需要我的人
我就会在那边。。

不需要当什么陌生人。。
每个人都值得去开心。
不需要伤心。。

生活上加油

Vacation or not?

Money!!!
haha.... i m lack of money now... woosh!!...
with no money in my wallet... now i m at penang! ..
haha... what a .... feel..

haha..
i m very very happy..
cause i finally get to eat penang food which i wanted most of the time..
what i had learn at penang when i see the bridge...
see my friend around.
i m not alone...
sometimes
i make myself many thought..
why human have such much negative though compare to positive though..
too bad.. this is human behaviour.
all we can do is... try and do it rather than we don't

why i m being weak instead of strong?
why can't i accept things that i really can't accept?
it is all my thought.. make it positive... things can be done. haha

Winter Solstice

Today i came back to malacca...
first thing i thought of... is my mum's tang yuan!

once a year, every thing is goin on and off again.. so here we are...
tang yuan... i m one year older again XD...

I m back to malacca mah... so here is my mum cooking for dinner XD...
i love my mum XD hahahaah...

also i went back to bukit beruang swimming pool
to get my ILS License

Tadaa!!
after 7 weeks... i finally get this stuff XD... haha.. happy
ohh with license.. i forget to take the pic.

Yesterday went around cyber for jog... it is quite nice as i see alot of things around which make
me
think a lot of why should i be happy, why should i see things on the right way...
but not negatively.

First when i was jogging...
i finally ran out of my breath, an indian guy pass through me... he was running as early as i m.
after that he overtook me.. that time... i was looking at the sun set

i was asking myself... i m not as good as him?
should i compare myself to him?
no... why? because i m not him..
i can be like sun... although i m nt bright today
but nxt day when i rise i wil be more bright than yesterday.

why not i think myself can be improve.
forget what is not good, but bring the better side of me to myself.

The lake of cyberpark is calm... although many people around
the lake remain calm. why not when i face problems, i remain  calm and solve the problem quietly.

i see many people around, sometimes no people there... around cyberjaya.
i ask myself.... am i alone when i useless? or am i not alone when i m useful?
i told myself... nope.. you are not alone.. i still have nature with me teaching me stuff.
what are true friends?
friends are with many definition.
accept when it come,
let go when it want to go.

huu... Many things else i have learnt... hard to explain...
but i m hoping this will help me in my life..
23 i hate this number...

今天学了很多。。

嗯。。。
等下。。。
在告诉你们 ^^

Unhealthy

Guess what...
blood from me..
i nose bleed again...
can't think of what is happening to me...
old things is happening back ... @@

while i was sneezing...
i though it was normal sneezing...
but

i m nose bleeding again..

Lifes is unexpected

Just right after i wanted to forget,
but i see again....
i wonder...
why god treat me like that....

sometimes i really hope i can calm down...
be someone people like..
just a normal and happy guy that people who use to know...
today i emo again.... drink wine.... having ownself unconsious.
ridiculous isn't it?

I just wish there is a people who can really care me..
just wish... but ...
the wish is still long way ago..

opps Exam again

later, coming soon 2.30pm
malaysian studies haa... hope i do prepare enough for it.
==... hope so haha...
everyday is the same thing... here n there..
but some days are special with friends haha...
i felt many things aren't impossible...
lets me strike for it...
my law... make it possible!!

突然想爱他。
make this as a  promise....

@@ i m listening to poker face nw @@ omg!!

gtg...
preparing for exam but not blogging .. shhh...

1.15pm 20th December 2009.

缘分

昨天。。
在水中。。
发现到。。 人群就像水。。 很多很多。。 的水滴。
可是遇见了，会停下来在一起吗？
人就像水，擦肩而过。。 陌生，不管你在哪个地方有多久。
不想就不会有。

人有机会见面也是缘分了。
有机会认识也是缘分。
可是缘分也可以是痛苦，也可以是快乐。

要自己发现到自己的快了。
每当我看见小孩子的时候，
我总觉得他们都在告诉我很多东西。
有个小孩看到我的苦脸时，
他说：“哥，你为什么像个恐龙阿伯”。
天真的小孩是不会说谎。
那时， 我想我应该让很多人怕了我。
有时我看见人， 问自己苦脸有错吗？
人有时一定会有苦脸， 不然就让自己苦着脸下去就行了。
在看多一点。。 我发觉自己想是不能得。。 要看而不是去想。
看到人家的痛苦，你会觉得自己的苦一定不会比人苦。
人生有很多高高低低，有左有右。
就像天气一样。
人家都没有埋怨，为什么自己要埋怨。
如果事情不好了，去决绝它，而不是埋怨。

看了这么多， 发现到自己还是个井底之蛙。
人生还有很多东西看。
不快乐时， 就看多一点东西，
很多快乐与悲观的事物还等着你看。

有时我羡慕人家的命运。
为什么人家会比我好，得到的也比我多。
但是他们都没去珍惜，给我不是多好。
过后，我在看，我发现， 我不能跟他们比较
因为， 缘分。是你的就是你的，不是你的就不是你的。
不需要去拼命争取，而是要耐心等待，到了你才去用
心
去争取。

我把我自己人生又在次悲观起来。
我不能这样做。我也不能去想着要做。
我不能觉得我自己有多大。对人家来说，
我还是个小蚂蚁，小沙粒。我可不是什么大的东西。
我能做什么，就是把自己，给自己， 一个人家给不到自己的快乐。

水中漂浮的我。。
看着天空， 问自己我不是什么，而我是人。
不要去麻烦了。 去追求我自己的快乐。

昨晚十三个许愿

1）考4 flat
2) 身体健康
3）家人平安
4）朋友们能快找到自己的快乐
5）父母赚大钱，哈哈
6）自己赚大钱！！
7）希望你幸福
8）希望你能成功
9）朋友们全部成功
10）十三届理事会顺顺利利
11）遇见能打开钥匙的人
12）做事不要粗心
13）平静的心

流星雨

昨晚，
我和新春筹委去到mmu stadium 去看流星
看到了不少的流星。。

朋友们都在许愿，
能考到好成绩，
新春顺利，
还有很多。

有朋友问我，你一定是许着要快点得到女朋友。。
但是我告诉他们， 有可能吗？
我每天晚上不断的想着， 我为什么需要恋爱。。
很痛苦。。 我真的不想再想了。。
每一次想，都不是自己想要的。。
想到不是自己想要的，真的好痛苦，很辛苦。

恋爱就像苹果一样。。

每一次，吃了他一口，觉得他不好吃后

就不要吃了，

这是就看起来不会是一个

完整的苹果，很不美丽

不知道为什么恋爱每一次都会让我受伤，
也不知道。。很难说。。
我昨晚的心情就像乌云这样。。
要下，可是下不成。 我的泪从以前就已经干了。
你说我想太多了。 我都想不去想太多。
可是就是偏偏在我没事做的时候想到。
也许，人家说，把自己便道最忙回决绝这个问题。
我套头回来说，我需要勇气，说，你的幸福，我给不到。
给自己买个机票，飞到没有你的地方。

我以为我已经找到了我的书，能陪我的书，
可是内容却不能让我看到。 我拥有不到那本书。
我不会读那本书，我不配有那本书。
那本书应该有的是自由快乐。

所以，我昨晚许了，给我一个平静的心，
生活在有多烦，有了平静的心，我就心满意住了。。
不想要有被吃掉苹果的感觉。
不要有恋爱了。。
直到有一天，缘分到了才说。。
请不要在我的心徘徊了，我要关店了。

Back To cyber again

i was wondering... i shouldn't think much.
yes i shouldn't think much, no need wonder.

actually, i really don't know, i really really don't know...
i just want some ending.. thats all... i doesn't want to continue anymore longer..
i felt so heavy in my heart and very ache.
it has been terrible but i won't complain.
i know complain won't get me anywhere.

I see most of my friend getting in and out for relationship.
they have a worst feeling than me, why should i complain?
now i hope they have a better life, even myself i would want a better life
single is still best for sometimes.
i m glad that my best friend came to me yesterday night,
it was nice having a chat with them after a long time.
hope Wen Si get well soon.
hope Pecky get her sound back very soon haha...

i will do what i want and leave once it is done.
thats all..

恋爱是很痛苦的， 恋爱也能是很甜的。
这时我觉得把我自己的心关闭起来就好。。
我也不需要了。

回到马六甲

Back to Malacca makes me wonder alot... 

i m start to being told by my mum, even him... 

told me that i shouldn't have so much thing on myself. 

that really bring me alot of disaster. 

every night i was thinking many things, even someone..

i couldn't make myself a decision to say. 

all i want just a simple life, simple thinking before i get into something i want. 

Dad told me, it isn't the time yet. 

Be patient. 

What isn't yours, will not be yours,

What Belong To you, will be yours. 

Yesterday went to my cousin house to learn something..

haha... Something very nice... and needs take alot of time. 

Afterward, went to whole bukit beruang also never sell..

who noes, a small shop that i myself long time nv go for so long have those thing. 

I m so happy XD. 

went back, trying how to do those thing, my mum even teach me. 

Afterward, went to celebrate my friend's birthday. 

Wonderful, i release most of my stress at singing KTV,

although it was worse for my voice, but everyone was shouting haha.. 

i m glad that i attend yesterday and back to malacca. 

What my life are? one month more. There will be my life, a greatest promise to myself 

for the first time. 

单身潜逃 - 戴佩妮

我没有你想像中那么坚强
我只是擅长用微笑去伪装
不是吗
我没有你形容的那么勇敢
我偶尔也会慌
我也和你一样
曾经年少轻狂
受了一点伤
我们都是一样
相信永远不远
但坚持却有点难
就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧
烧痛了我们就逃
带着现实的铐
摺叠我剩余的微笑
通往没有你的轨道
就让记忆中的你慢慢老
老去了谁也得不到
带着我的祈祷
摺叠我累积的问号
开始一次的单身潜逃

aHa……aodaodaodao

自信

很多人问，我的自信呢？
那我问会他们，哪你的自信呢？


每个人，自己的自信的存在，是没人看得到，
而是要发觉到。


自己没自信，是因为不想要。。 
不如把要的东西成为生活上的目标。。
把你的自信拿出来。。 


有时，自信好像老鼠。。
看到对它有害的东西，就不会出来了。。 
就好象人一样。。 
当一些比较难的事情发生的时候。。 
我们本身的自信就很难出来。。 


自信
需要勇气


大家
不要因为一次跌倒，而像老鼠一样怕了。。
我们要像老鹰一样。。 不管世界有多危险，它，在外都不是问题。
有自信的在旷阔的天空上飞翔。 

Sleepness night

a whole night of thinking says that... why should i think...
it is rather to think nothing but happy things...

It is a courage for me,
i learn from here, never give up although it is hard,
in the end i will get something i want if i never give up.

it is always a support from my friend, love them so much...
i wonder how am i going to repay them..
haha..

Few days ago... i make my friend's contact lens drop out from her eye...
i felt so guilty about it... but she told me not to worry.
that time i was wondering around in my mind, thinking what can i do?
nxt day, due to my carelessness, i accidentally wrinkled her drawing paper..
>.< shit me... i don't know whether she forgive me already a not?

sometimes, i rewind back my memory,
my father was always true, i m a careless person. i should admit it at first.
haha....
so hor.... we cannot careless, we cannot give up and we must be patient haha..
blekz=p

Swim Faster, Study Efficiently, Think Carefully

I wish i could swim faster,
i wish i could have a better stamina,
i wish i could have participate in all swimming competition,
because of few stuff, i throw away my dream.
but doesn't matter as i learn many things, learn to give up and learn to take and learn to stay strong.
i wish i have time to train... i wish i have time to swim with my fellow swim friends, it is fun to swim with people
William!! swim with u is such a nice feeling.. Johnson!! i miss our matches!! Jesse i miss our butterfly matches..
Everybody we miss our 30s below 50m swim!!...

i wish i could study Efficiently,
i wish i can study with all my might,
i wish i can get four flat, i wish i could get smarter, i wish i can have a faster mind.
i couldn't help but to think.. what happen if i din't get good result?
everybody is saying... result actually doesn't really mind in our future.. how i fuck that though...
result really does matter, it makes parents happy.. do u all know that parents, inside them
they really get very very disappointed when you fail to get a good result, even though they say won't mind
it is just because they wanted you to feel better and to do better.
Don't disappoint our parents. What the hell are we learning in our university life?
Learn to be tired? learn to complain? learn to Sleep? learn to skip class?
know it yourself and of course myself..

After i came cyber... i had been thinking recklessly.
i didn't really think carefully for what i want, and what i m.
Such reckless thinking making me turning into a fool that everyone is started to say
what kind of shit is this Alex.
After i came here... i had a feeling that i had lost many friends around.
Just like secondary school...
But it doesn't matter...
i told myself not to give up.
Ready to push forward and release those unnecessary though.

Being a dead heart isn't bad after all.
Doesn't need to fall in love, doesn't need to worry so much about the one we like.
give all the loves to friends who need it, cares those friends who needed care the most.
I miss my Malacca friends.
They used to cheer me up when i have tears,
They used to bring me place where i can have fun when i fall apart,
They used to teach me when i was wrong.
I miss their support, i miss their care.

Right here, right now... i even will say i really need someone to care me...
Espeacially my mum, i hardly go back because i m busy... i really felt sorry,
my mum told me, is ok because those will help me in future.
Maybe is my attitude problem, people start to get away from me...

I would like to thanks especially Eunice Aw haha... for cheering me up when i was really down.
also would like to thanks Alice for sharing me with her stories also... that make me have a big though haha...
=p.
also thanks Sk for telling me stuff likewise would change me a lot in cyber.

i wonder do people know what m i thinking? hmm i guess not haha... doesn't really matter

Night...
Gd night
Oyasuminasai
晚安

MOtivation

Unless you had though what motivates you
towards studies..
towards work...
towards something that always stress you out...

you will never fight till the end for something that needed you to do...

i had lost many hopes now a day... i know i can't give up in this very end.
i just can't... i know i had been irresponsible this few days even week even month...
i doesn't know what had happen to me. But i do know i can't give up.
It is weird, what else will make me fight for things that is going on.
sometimes i do feel sad.. but sometimes i tel myself... there is no use to be sad...
i had regain who m i.. but i doesn't regain what i m.

as a result...
what m i to this world? ... at the end i m laying on my bed again... for no reason..
haha..

Friends who lack of mood and motivation to push urself...
do think of what they are to you, and think of parents.
Think of ur future.. what will those happen to u, create you in future.

no COMPLAIN

What had happen in my life!
No COMPLAIN

What i get, What i deserve!
No COMPLAIN!

Why should i complain...
it is wasting time...
it doesn't benefit me..
why should i jealous over everything, everyone and everywhere.

It doesn't make sense...

Don't dissapoint over something
get use to something that even have a slightest possible to fail.
Be smart and see forward... look for solution not look for reason.
Don't waste time... don't waste money!
listen carefully to every single word people say... it might be useful
and it help people to feel better.

GWAHHH..

TEehee!! 2012.. >> 0001... haha...

First though of 2012..
Disaster!!!... World End!! @@....
watch with friends.... 2012... for two times...@@
it was great although i watch 2 times though... imagine that our world has come to an end
i wonder will people survive just like the people in the movie?
and arch for people to stay in just for few years until everything is settle down
and a new world reborn?
Whats my first impression towards a world end?
BOOM!!(yaiks!!) whole world get explode... @@ unimaginable isn't it...
my friends were telling me that at front part of the movie where he saw the water boiling in the tank..
he say wow.. free hot water can boil egg.. i was like... @@ haha... wtf  oh okay.. haha free boil egg..
The element of the movie itself somehow touch me... i felt it... some family's love..
sacrifice... money!.... and of course... selfish though
Do people gain something from selfish?
NO... they lost humanity!! @@
In reality.. if 2012 world end is really happening... i tell myself what m i goin to do?
this three years? give up lifes? or do something honourable such as making the ship for people to survive?
haha... i certainly will go back to my family first... this makes me feel Family are more than important.


Oh yeah show something to u guys... Eros does it haha..
not bad... it was capture by my phone... so u guys noe i nv lie on this photo... haha...

and finally !! ...

my cute picture!! @@ woo

haha... thanks alot my fren >.< ppl say me cute in facebook liao

i appreciate this alot ^^

Overdone

Maybe i have overdone it....
Many times i try to fix the problem...
somehow somewhat... it is getting worst......

i have try to change...
but changing to something that you won't like...
mayb i m too harsh sometimes... hope it doesn't hurt u
i m too selfish sometimes

sometimes i m too rush over something
make decision without thinking what will be happen next.
didn't listen to what you say.
Didn't know what's your feeling.
i m sorry..
i certainly hope you will up soon.

PainFul!!!

Arggh!!..

damn.... my leg is sprain

it is damn painful.. why is it this time have to come ..

i have pretty much thing to do this two week and yet...

today early morning went class... makes me suffer when i start to walk on the stair case..

Argg!!....

Thanks for my fren that help me yesterday at least ease my painful when i sprain my leg..

and thanks for ur medicine too.. it help me alot...

i just hope that my leg can recover soon so that i can continue to do what i want.

Singapore

Dilemma...

parents ask me to go singapore...

i require to go back on 21 november..

which is my camp day T__T...

for my passport...

what should i do!!???

Celebrating the 100!! post of my blog!! WOOT!

teehee!!!

How To forget a person you love

Cool..

found this on a website

Step 1:

Cry out everything you have to cry about! When we get hurt, it's normal (and good) to cry. Don't ever think you're being weak for crying and don't feel embarrassed because of it! It's normal and it's good! When you cry, you let go of part of your anger and hurt so you can feel less heavy. You can lock yourself in a room, if you want to, and put on some sad music...but let yourself feel the pain and cry so you can let it go. The main thing here is: Get rid of the pain! Just let her go!

Step 2:

Get busy! When you're trying to get someone out of your head, you need to put other things inside of it. In other words...get busy! It doesn't matter how, you just need to get distracted. Go to a movie, watch a play, travel. It doesn't matter what are you going to do--the important thing is to find something to do. Find a hobby, find something you enjoy doing, something to keep your mind busy. If your mind is busy, it doesn't have time or space to think about the person you're trying to forget.

Step 3:

Spend some time with your friends. Friends are always great to have in this kind of situation! Friends can make you feel good about yourself and get you distracted very easily. They will certainly make you laugh and make you see that you're way more important than you think! The only warning is: Ask them not to talk about the person you're trying to forget. If they start bringing the topic up in every conversation, you won't be able to forget, and instead of making you laugh, they're going to make you cry. So be honest and ask them not to talk about it!

Step 4:

Avoid the person! Try not to go to places you know you can meet that person. When you're trying to forget someone and you two keep seeing each other, it gets hard to get over it. If you meet him/her somewhere, just be nice and kind, but find an excuse to go away as fast as you can! If you work or study with him/her and you can't avoid seeing him/her, just try not to look and not to talk too much. Just be gentle and keep busy all the time so you won't have excuses to look at him/her or to chat.

Step 5:

Go out and see some different faces! Being at home gives you more time to think about it, which makes the process even more difficult. So even if you're not feeling excited or you're in a bad mood, just put on your best clothes, best shoes, best smile, call some friends and go somewhere nice where you can dance, drink, listen to some music. And the most important: See some different faces! When you go out, you notice that the person you're trying to forget is not the only one who's got a perfect smile and an amazing voice...thank god, there are other interesting people around the world, too!

Step 6:

Avoid every kind of romantic thing! If you're trying to forget someone, you'd better not watch romantic movies or listen to romantic songs...it makes you feel bad and you will certainly remember the person you're trying to get rid of. It doesn't matter if it's a song you love or if it's playing on the radio...just change the station or do something else! Put on some happy songs, dancing songs, watch some comedies, terror movies, whatever...you just need to avoid the romantic things for now!

Step 7:

Take good care of yourself. Women tend to run for some kind of self-destruction when they're hurt. If we break up our perfect relationship, then we have no reason to get our nails done anymore and the only thing that gives us comfort is chocolate and sugar. That way, the only thing we do is to become less attractive and lessen our self-confidence. So if you're hurt, just try to use your pain for yourself instead of against you. Go to the gym, work out a lot, get your nails and hair done...do whatever you can so you can feel more pretty and confident!

Step 8:

Accept the process! You can be really strong and it's still going to hurt. The process takes time and you have to accept that! You can't hope to forget in 2 days someone you loved for 2 years...and you can't pretend to be strong if you feel like crying. Just face your pain and accept that it's not easy and it's going to take some time. When you're patient with yourself and your situation, things tend to get easier...

Well, of course, forgetting someone is not easy to do nor is it easily explained in just 8 steps. But there are some things that make the process a lot smoother. As I said, it takes time and it's hard but I'm sure you can do it! The only thing that is really, really important is: It all depends on you! Don' ever forget that! If you want to forget someone, then you will, there is no doubt! Even if it takes a long time, even if you have to be really strong...you will be! In that kind of situation we usually find out that we are a lot stronger than we give ourselves credit for! So believe that. Believe that, take a deep breath and move on! Your life's waiting for you, baby!

Quoted from

http://www.howtodothings.com/family-relationships/how-to-forget-someone-in-8-steps

errm... i should try it haha

FOOD?

Aww this is my lunch bdw...

i had been imagining...

food is important for all lifes..

without food, no one can survive...

i had been thinking under the rain today...

What i can do?

guess i m thinking of food art, food nutrition.

Healthy for all human being.

Angry

我很生气我自己。。。

为什么那么做。。。

为什么那么傻。。。

又来了一次。。。

很难过。。。

昨晚。。。

跟Alice出去果然有把心放开一点。。。

Cyberlake。。。。

So Near Yet so Far.....

我跟你的距离越来越远。。。

我不知道要怎么做了。。。

我想。。。 时间是最好的解药。。

我要开心！！！！！

Dreams

What I wanted?

what i m feeling?

what does i want in my future?

what i want to feel?

unfortunate for me hahaha....

i choose the wrong way in friendship...

thats why i m feeling lonely now...

yeap i do admit haha....

Deep inside me, i was thinking that i m very sad....

but .. my mother always remind me to stay happy always...

yes... i will..

deep inside me, i was thinking i m useless...

but .. my dad always remind me be wise... things aren't impossible

yes .. i will..

there is sometimes i ever think....

why i m sitting in my own room right on my chair...

thinking... what can i do?

why i m feeling so desperate?

why i m feeling so sad?

i look back right at my own old diary that i use to wrote when i feeling sad

errm... (*laugh) at my self...

is what i feel i want....

i put my hope at a wrong hope...@@

things aren't as simple as you want....

it can be complicated it can be simple...

right here right now.... i think back at my own self and say...

i still have a long way to go..

i realise... things i want i can't get..

it is because i never know what i really want.

What are my dream?

do i really have a dream?

i never though what my dream are..

and here i think.. i will have my parents dreams..

live harmony... be successfull to live happily together now and in future

Inside the pool water i went in recently...

the sky is so blur when i see from under the water..

i wonder.... m i always in water... see every single people

at a blur sight.. doesn't know what they want and what they feel..

what m i to other people... what kind of people i m, people think

i just wanted to know...

Am i emo-ing? and i really really sad?

nope i m not... because my mum is always there thinking of me, support me with all her heart.

I love you mum.

Do i need love?

yes i do need! but who? when?

I doesn't know.... i only know... i appreciate people who understand me and love me

i will do my best for them and myself....

Chinese Language Society

what do i see you as? a place to play? a place to know girls?

a place to learn? a place to know more friends?

i see you as another home of me.

I wanted to decorate this home... i wanted to make this home wonderful

I will do my best!

To my dear housemate...

i am really sorry that sometimes i can't really accompany you all.

Espeacially Wun Chiak..

two times you invited me to ur birthday celebration yet i can't make it

i m really sorry for there. I will try my best nxt time^^ although it is stil long.

For my education...

i promise my dad... i promise myself

no more playing... Serious!! 4 flat is my aim.

for my finance...

aww!!... no more money...

it is always been my habit to spend... but really i try my best to work...

i have my money... i need to work harder to earn more money.

What else i wanted to say?

errm....

yeah.... i wanted to make a mark here.. i always have been saying empty words for myself

and other people...

am i goin to do that again? i hope i won't haha.

All my friend in malacca campus... i miss you guys...

it has been awhile... although we doesn't make much memory...

errm... for my junior... i m happy that i meet u all once again when

i m back to malacca that time... i really enjoy meeting you all

i miss you all. Hope those who coming up cyber... i can't wait to see you all again.. haha...

By the way guys... i m goin malacca to do a cyber talk!! yeah!!... see you guys there support

the cyber talk from CLS ya!!

Lastly... there are few people who i wish to thanks...

cause they always cheer me up..

Thanks... I noe u noe... who you are..^^

Lifes

Lifes

beneath us

lies upon anger

lies upon frustration

lies upon happiness

lies upon excitement

What we hope for life?

你觉得生活需要什么？

我不觉得我需要什么。。。

all we hope it is just simple....

a simple life will brought u alot of meaning...

do what you want

don't do what you don't want

lifes can be complicated...

lifes can be simple

but

True cares and loves from parents and true friends

are always there...

remember it well...

lives the way you want.. lives happily...

i wish you always get what you wanted

我看见问题是我们的障碍，

可是问题就是我们的成长，

所以

A smile a day... keeps the frustration away!!

i m Myself... Myself are to smile and to bring happiness to everybody..

=)

Thrilling day

OMG....

today was another bad day for me though...

haha... anyway no complain... >.<

guess what everybody... at 11.45am Friday 30th october 2009

Me, Alex Lim Hong Yuen is calculating how much have he spend in whole month of

OCTOBER!!!

guess how much...

4 digit i suppose... start with 2 and almost to 3, T__T

my wallet T__T

it feel so thin...

i think i m gonna get some work this semester..(*awww*)

though i at first think wow this is gonna be a very free semester for me =(

first....

of today

wake up late... i hope Yuki doesnt mind haha..

paiseh my daughter =p...

and then battery dies off cause of my carelessness

thus have to make my daughter walk back to her condo...

aww it make me feel terrible =(

after this i guess i m lucky enuf to have people who is so kind enuf

to help me... i m so glad they came...

after this i went to dengkil car shop to have my battery change...

so hence another RM120 gone... i m overbudjet for this month!! darn!!

&^%!&^%*&^!*@#^*@!&

Feel like scolding bad word... ehem(*cough*)

MxCxxxx.. TNB..... KNN CCB CLJ... &*&^#@*@

tuuu tuuuu tuuuu (p.s censorship for children under 13)

LOLX...LMAO..

ehem

there you go haha...

Alex!!! have a nice day...

Realise 发觉

我发现到。。。

一个人。。 喜欢上一个人的时候。

他只需要她支持他。。 不是要跟他讲道理。。

因为那时候。。 他是心理很乱。。 想东西

有时候会，很多都是逃避。。

转话题。。。

这是候会很痛苦。。。

发觉了。。。

人进步。。。 需要接受人家的看法。。。

不要认为。。。 人家很厉害。。。 生活上不能追上

就想要放弃。。 想防抗。。

人不需要跟人比较。。。

人是需要跟自己比较。。。

人要朝向会的人学习。。

不管是谁。

不管是几时。。

社会有很多种。。。

人有很多种。。。。。

要怎么接受。。。

要怎么拒绝。。。

你的判断。。。你的选择。。。。 你的答案

影响你自己。。。

真正关心你的人。。

是父母。。 不是朋友。。。

朋友是有时候你旁边的陪伴者。

可是父母永远都是你的陪伴者，听你所有心事。。

只要好好告诉他们。。 他们会了解你。。

虽然。。。 我这点有时在某些人某些事情有错。。

在仔细想想。。 不管父母会怎么样。。。 他们都是你的父母。。

不会再有人是你的父母了。。

朋友

谁都可以当你的朋友。

至于爱情。。。

很多人。。 不管小学，中学，大学。。

人是会少少渴望爱情。。。

也许我自己还不知道什么是爱情。。

很模糊。。。甚至有时会很幼稚。。 天正。。

渴望爱情会让你思想很不平衡。。

做事很会差去。。

不去想。。 不去要。。

是你的就会来。。

这几天。。。 我变了。。

变成一个人家都觉得不是我自己的人。。

It is A life that you can't expect it to be happening

生活。。

有上有下。。

在生活当中。。

也许。。 我说。。。

很多困扰。。。很麻烦。。

但。。 我可要问我自己。。

我家人呢？

他们不是比我更困扰，

更多烦恼吗？

所以。。 不能让家人被伤害。。

因为家人是我们的最终支持者。

有时候。。。

某些事情。。

是需要放弃， 不要再去让别人伤害。。

也许。。

逃避不需要见面也是一个很好的解决方案。。

虽然。。 不是一个很好的解决方法

可是。。 慢慢的冷落。。 慢慢的忘记。。

也就是时间给最好的解药。。。可是。。

我昨晚。。。 有人告诉我。。

逃避。。 是得到更多问题。。

要面对现实。。

我告诉我自己。。

我不会逃避。。

有事放马过来。。

感情。。 祝你幸福。。

不再烦恼。

once a depth of a deep ocean..

once i dive

i ever wonder

will i get up

and there i say

i will.

在寻找进步

这是

我在想

想来想去

却想不到我要想得东西

难到我思想的极限就有那么样？

有时觉得很烦。。

为什么这么简单的东西

也不能解决，

可是我不能这么烦。。

我只能跟我自己讲。。

烦恼是没用的。。

要冷静下来。。 去寻找进步。。

我错了

我

觉得我错了。。。。

不应该这么做。。

最近。。。

想法有问题。。。

不知道为什么会。。 乱乱想。。。

心很痛。。。。

教会了我

她。。

教会了我。。

怎么想。。

她。。

教会了我。。。

要怎么对人。。。

她

教会了我。。

怎么忍耐。。。

她

教会了我。。。

不要放弃。。。

她

不断的给我新的看法。。

这给我对世界的看法更大。。

她

让我醒觉到。。

人不能一直依靠。。

我再也怎么想

我还是个开着门的笼内的鸟。。

不可能的事情

有些事情。。。。

我已经觉得不可能了。。

为什么。。。

我还是要去做。。。。

很多事情。。。。 最近让我烦恼。。。。 很希望能快快解决

课业。。。

我终于放弃了。。。 败在自己的手上。。。

结果。。。 只能会到自己的原路。。

家人。。。

好不容易。。。

我才能让我家人有快乐的一天。。

为什么。。。 电脑世界。。。 能破坏我的快乐。。

病。。。 不要再来了。。。

朋友。。。。

这个世界上。。。 人不可能永远依靠着别人。。。

有时。。。 自己去做会比较快乐。。

不能得时候。。。 不要勉强。。。

勉的会后悔。。。

爱情。。。

不能勉强。。。

在我心中。。。。 不知道要怎么想了。。。

我只能说。。。 是我的。。 我会好好珍惜。。

不是我的。。。 我只能说。。。 希望你快乐。。。

我会永远支持你。。

这。。。 我只能说。。。 我会等。。。

林鸿源。。。

你回到了马六甲。。。

是时候。。 找回你的笑容。。。

回去后。。。 你要做个。。 理想的人。。

够了。。。

我

够了。。。

我现在很辛苦。。。

不想再想了。。。

失落沙洲

又来到这个港口
没有原因的拘留
我的心乘着斑剥的轻舟
寻找失落的沙洲

随时间的海浪漂流
我用力张开双手
拥抱那么多起起落落
想念的 还是你望着我的眼波

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

又回到这个尽头 我也想再往前走
只是越看见海阔天空
越遗憾 没有你分享我的感动

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
疲惫的身影不是我
不是你想看见的我
我不是一定要你回来
只是当独自走入人海
除了你之外的依赖
还有谁能教我勇敢

除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱