Can't get inside

i really don't understand what you all thinking.
i really can't understand what you all are doing.
This suck!!! suck to the max!!!
how come i can't even feel you all as part of the family...
all i need is just you all are part of the family.
just simply feel... why i can't get it... why am i trying so hard for it.
everyday i can't help to bring out my bad side,
scolding shit, and all the bad words, !@#(*^!@#@& just because
of STUPID this word.
i admit i m quite disorganize now.
i m unhappy, not until you appear.
not until A2 - 2 -6 is there.
working environment sucks,
one phrase,
don't make me become selfish..
don't make me don't even care about what you need for.
i doesn't really know am i wrong or correct
i hate this phrase... 心理问题
doing event is a happy thing, but why for the first time, i felt i m so ... not happy.
bind by past, bind by unknown, bind by uncertainties, bind by everything that i think is bad for the event it self.
it is like... SPOON FEED!!
Aren't you guys realised, what is the time now?
aren't you guys are good now? why you guys make me felt.. oh nooo...
i want my event feeling back. Malacca RD i miss you guys.